Mixed Baby Feelings ?

I've been married a year and a half and it's been great! I lost a baby at nine weeks back in May of this year. He was devastated when he found out I was pregnant. He didn't want to keep it and felt like if we did I was forcing him into being a father (even though the pregnancy was an accident). Well we didn't have it obviously. This month is when I would have been due and it's been on my mind even more. I've talked to him about starting to save up for when we do have a baby so we are prepared and he thinks it's a good idea, though he still seems like the world would end if I got pregnant any time soon. Don't get me wrong- I totally and completely respect that and would NEVER even dream of getting pregnant without him knowing. (I'm not crazy lol). We just haven't talked about when we might start trying, even if it's a few years down the road. When I have brought it up it seems like anytime would be a bad time for him. I guess not knowing when he would be comfortable with it makes me sad. I don't know.