Postpartum Body

I am 6 weeks postpartum and I hate myself so much, my stomach is horrible it's all flabby and stretch marks have appeared, i also have my line still down my stomach. My vagina is a state, my clit is all swollen and the skin is raised around it, my legs are big and chunky and covered in stretch marks that only appeared after birth. My boobs are huge and nipples are so large and brown. I'm fed up looking this way. I am not wanting my partner to see my body ever again, i am never going to be able to get intimate with him if i stay this way, i'm way too insecure for this. I had a difficult delivery, emergency forceps and episiotomy and also tore so much. I'm done with this, i feel like leaving my partner because i'm that insecure about this, i'd rather be on my own when i feel this ugly and disgusting😣