Sad, but thankful

Sunflower Ma 🌻
I am 10 weeks and 4 days currently and birth is a far way away, but yesterday my husband, mom, and I just realized I will need to have a C-section. I have Chiari Malformation. Its a brain condition whete your brain not in the correct position in your skull. The brain itself is fine... Im an aspiring med student.... but it raises some complications. I get severe migraines when I cry.... imagine pushing out a baby. Yah.... thats not gonna happen. Plus I could tear the patch surgically sewn into my brain when I had brain surgery and thats no bueno. Ive always dreamed of a home birth but I cant even birth in a hospital. This is my only option and Im bummed but hey I still get my child! And in a way, I get to avoid anyone's opinions on birthing choices since i legit medically need to do it this way! I could go into a coma if I dont. The other thing is, they have to put me all the way under which puts the baby under as well which i dont like, but its necessary! Glad I live in this age of medical technology! Or else I would have a hard time living let alone raising kids!