So I met this boy, Kaleb, 2-3 years ago, and crushed on him real hard. We talked a lot, flirted, laughed, complimented, I was so happy with him, until I met another boy, Arima, and it was only because, I felt I was getting friendzoned by Kaleb, when he had feelings for me as well. I forgot about Kaleb, I thought it would be the best thing to do, but still rejected Arima when he asked me out, it was purely instinct, I just couldn't see myself with him in a romantic way. Kaleb didn't know about this, but wasnt mad, just looked at me in a sad/shy way, he'd look down walking past me, raise his head up and let our eyes meet before walking off.

Months after that, I got an Instagram, Kaleb and I talked more, but not in real life, because we rarely saw each other. I started having feelings for him again. I confessed. I confessed..

I know he was wrong about it, but I don't blame him. A rumour went around about me, which came from a jealous girl. He didn't know who to believe, so he believed her, since she never lied to him for all nearly 5 years of knowing him. He talked about the rumors, and I told him he didn't have the balls to tell me why he's doing this, after all I've done for him. It became a full scale fight. I lost so many friends, even my best friend, who called me an asshole. She tried sayimg that it was about another girl, and I went along with it...

The fight lasted 2 weeks of me flipping him off countless times, blocking them, and finally, I contacted the principal of the highschool. He brought us together and we sincerely apologized, and had to shake hands. I wanted to ask him,

After all the things I did for him. How nice I was, cried on the first day of our fight, never meant anything I said.. How could he do this? Did he mean his hurtful words? Why did he immediately date a girl a day after the fight started, and broke up with her right after the fight??

I remained silent, because I would have to apologize countless times of bringing it up. I've been nice to him, giving him papers, signing things for him, returning his waterbottle he forgot. It was mostly small talk, and I want to talk to him more..

Should I write him a letter, or just pull him aside and talk??