When will i be normal?

Im 36. No kids. One pregnancy but no child 2001. started having bad periods in 1998. Used almost every type of birth control to regulate it. Started experiencing painful intercourse 2006?. Found out in 2012 that i had fibroids. Had myomectomy 12/4/12 (2 baseball and 1 golf ball size; 1 in womb others front/back of uterus). Found out from laprascopy/hysteroscopy that i have endometriosis stage 2 & 3; mimicks same symptoms as fibroids. makes me reconsider a family. Already felt like maybe its not for me or my calling. Like others i feel like i cant catch a break. I feel inadequate for my husband. He isnt sold on kids because of how crazy the world is but isnt opposed either. His sperm count came back with a low motility rate; i dont remember specifics at the moment. But idk. Right now my tummy is sore and i am tired of being a girl. Not sure if that makes sense. I have parts that cant be used for intended purposes. I know others have it worse. Didnt think my writing would be this long; needed to vent a bit i guess.