Emotional mess


So while I'd like to blame everything on my husband not telling me things, simple things like when we are going places so I can ask off work, or when he will be busy so I don't register us for classes and then have to reschedule all of them... I'm pretty sure he is telling me and I'm just not hearing it or forgetting it and it's making him angry at me for forgetting things he's told me and I'm getting angry at myself to the point where am I am now sitting in what should eventually be our nursery, staring out the window and imagining a little girl or boy playing in the backyard, crying my eyes out because I somehow feel like an already horrible mom.