This world is so ugly and crazy I got 3 kids and one on the way I have to have a cesarean section and I'm scared I'm scared of bringing another child into this world 3 boys and 1 Girl I'm scared I might not make it off the table after this C-section I'm scared I won't be a good mom to them. since I was little I was molested I had a hard time giving affection to them and I feel very bad about it I wish things was different I pray things change and I pray things get better it's depressing knowing that we all have to die