Anyone TTC got a BFP and not been excited because you've had chemicals?

Madison • endometriosis * ovarian cysts * ttc #1
I got a positive today and I just feel so depressed about it. My last 4 cycles have all been chemical pregnancies and I just feel like that's what's about to happen again. I don't know what to do I don't want to go get blood work to be told it's only 4hcg and I'm going to bleed soon. 😢😢😢