What have I done

3 years ago I met the love of my life. I was 15 and a freshman in high school. I met this guy who was a senior and I fell madly in love with him. We spent time alot together. On April 20th of 2014 he left for basics and it crushed me because I told him I loved him and he said he didn't want to date me because he was leaving and everytime I asked him if he liked me he said maybe. After he left I spent a months crying and then 5 months after that I got into a abusive relationship.. I regret to this very day that I didn't wait on him. Last night I contacted him after 2 years and I needed to know what happened before he left. Come to find out he was gonna ask me out when he came home. I'm in a happy realtionship now and I'm getting married next year. To a completely different guy. But in my mind I want to run away and be with the other one who is in every sense of the way my one true love. I mean fairy tale love at first sight type of thing.