I need to vent...

Lately , I've been really in my feelings and by that I mean depressed mainly.. I feel like everything is going wrong. For instance me and my bf have been fighting so much. I'm literally on the edge of moving out. He really doesn't respect the fact that I HATE /GET SICK with the smell of weed. YES HE SMOKES. Today he decided to make weed brownies. And tbh, it just pushed me to the limit. I mean cmon grow up, and get your shit together. I don't care much about smokers but around a pregnant women? Especially when she gets sick? Dude... No respect at all!

I can go on and on about that but there's so much more...

My bfs sister is doing the baby shower. And I thought shed like some help because she doesn't have a job. So, I asked politely if she would like help I know some people.. And she took that offer with no problems.. Until the other day she told me bf I'm practically ruining the surprise and I need to relax on trying to control everything!? Like what.... Its not a big deal to me but if it was to her she could of said no? I was just trying to help but man forget that...

Never again will I try to help somebody...

And then my sisters, oh lord Jesus.

They have this feud going on (I'm the oldest) they are 16&21 . Anyways, I found out the youngest did some shady things so whenever I go over all they do is bicker at each other. Its getting quite annoying. I definitely won't be getting in the middle of that. But I just needed to vent I know its pretty much nonsense but I'm seriously at my wits end. All I want to do is cry and it sucks cause all I want to do is smile, you know?

I feel like I have no hope.

Seriously, this baby needs to come :( 15 more weeks! Ughhhhh 😩