Sexually frustrated . HEEEELP 😯

I have a friend I always confines in . Well it's vice versal but some how we always end up fucking. I finally decided that's all I wanted from him and told him he got mad and don't hmu no more should I reach out or no . I miss the sex but I feel like only way we gone have sex is if I lie or change my mind . Or is he playing tricks on me I'm so confused but I really think I'm addicted to his sex . After sex I want him to leave but he always want to stay sometimes I leave my house thinking he would leave he be there when I get back . Sometimes he would want to meet but if we not fucking or I know we not I make up an excuse why I can't see him . I feel bad but they do it to females why we can't do it and plus I was honest and upfront about it .