Everyone but me

So just some advice... We have been ttc for a year and a half. Long story short, found out  four different people close to me are pregnant. None of which wanted kids or were trying. We've been doing and tracking everything under the sun. I am happy for all of them.. I really am, it's a huge blessing after all. But I can't help but feel a bit awkward while wishing it was me while being happy and congratulating everyone. How do you cope with this all around you while being heartbroken after every month that passes? I couldn't help but break down and cry when I found out about the last two. And I felt awful about that. Any advice?? 😁