pregnancy test

So I know I should be happy, but my BF and I were nervous that I was pregnant, so we bought two pregnancy tests. They both came out negative which is a relief because we both don't have enough money for a kid but it was a bit upsetting. I've always wanted kids but I didn't know I'd be this upset over NOT being pregnant. It's a good thing, I know. Pregnancy would be bad being broke and 18 (when I still have college) but idk. Just needed to kinda vent about it.