Well today is the day and I'm being induced. The father of my kids made me drive myself here I'm here all alone waiting to be admitted and he won't come until I have a room if he comes because he's embarrassed of me??? We have a very rocky relationship of 6 years and he was cheating on me for a year and a half paid all of this girls bills who was actually a friend of mine and said he loved her well in November of last year I finally cheated on him I had NO clue I was even pregnant (yes protection was used and there's no question that this baby isn't his because we've already had the DNA test done) I've been dreading the day I have this baby:( well the guy I messed with got mad and told him everything! So he's mad I had sex while pregnant and I didn't even know!!!! Otherwise I wouldn't have! I put up with so much shit from him and I'm sitting alone at the fucking hosp in tears because he is being such a fucking asshole! My whole pregnancy I've been alone! I'd give anything to go back and change everything I really would:( my life sucks so much!!!! I have so much hurt and anger built up he blames me for all of this but he's the reason :( he doesn't understand that though;( we haven't lived together since March and I even found someone to watch our kids just so he could be with me. And nothing:( he's living in a beautiful 3/3 while I'm stuck living at my gpas house with me and 3 kids in one room. Abd all he says is this is what I get this is the life I asked for! I'd be ok if my granny was still here but next week will be a year that she's been gone and I honestly don't know what to do:( I'm not extremely close with anyone in my family that I actually want in the room with me only my granny:( I just wish he'd man up and be there for me emotionally like he was for her with her baby that wasn't even his:(