A year since our loss...

How do you cope? I've been dreading tomorrow. I had an awful dream I cannot shake and have no idea how to tell my hubby how I'm feeling. I'm so beyond blessed to be carrying our healthy baby girl (35weeks pregnant tomorrow too) but it pains me to think of the one we lost a year ago tomorrow. It's also my Dad's birthday and we're having dinner at our house. Just not sure how to put a smile on my face.