I feel kind of pathetic writing in a forum about how lonely I feel, but I need to talk to someone. You see I have such a huge family aunts, uncles,cousins, so you would think I had at least 1 of my 50+ cousins to talk to, but I dont. We like to act like we are all so close, we live in a small town so we see eachother everyday, but as soon as you say one thing about how you feel the entire family knows, nobody says anything but you can feel that everyone was just talking about you. Anyways everyone has their parents and brothers n sisters to lean on but my parents split some years ago and my mom went MIA... Ugh it's such a long story to write I dunno maybe I'm stupid for even trying this...