Hello everyone! I I just wanted to say that it gets better. I've had anorexia for 6 years and bulimia for 4. This last year I was sent to an eating disorder clinic where I recovered then quickly fell back down the rabbit whole. My heart began to give out along with my kidneys....the thing that helped me? Well eating disorders are about control, me, I had no control in my house. My parents were controlling so I controlled food. I always worried about having kids because I wondered if I screwed it up. In trying to get pregnant this year I cried at the thought that I wouldn't have babies...but here I am, the heaviest I have ever been in my life, and pregnant!!! Eating disorders live with you forever, but they will never consume you forever. You do have to fight though, find help! I wouldn't have made it through if I wouldn't have had my therapist with me and my amazing boyfriend!