Emotional rant!!!

Okay this is my second month of fermara and both times I didn't start with a period my doctor just said "whatever day I take it consider it calendar day 3" apparently there is a higher success rate with just starting fertility medicine without inducing a period. First month I was on 2.5 mg nothing happened so now I'm on 5mg!! I'm currently on cd 10 so far I've had negative ovulation test. Mine and my husbands 1 year wedding anniversary is next month ( been together for 5 years). I pray this is our month I would love to announce on our anniversary. I'm so emotional right now about me not getting pregnant yet. I have pcos. I wish my stupid ovaries would work the way there supposed to. I feel like crying and just breaking down..