35 weeks feeling suicidal..

I've always struggled with being suicidal. I have had many attempts but I'm the last 4 years I've been suicidal attempt free. However, I am 26 years old and pregnant with my first child at 35 weeks. Recently my marriage has gone to shambles. I am now living with my mom. My husband does not visit me much at all maybe once a week. I lost my food stamp assistance. I have no income and my husband does not give me money he tells me to tell him when I need something. My car recently broke down. And I lost my Medicaid insurance until 2 weeks before my due date and one week before my induction. I'm so stressed and depressed lately I can't help but think of suicide and if I should give birth to my son ASAP and just do away with myself before he learns how pitiful of an excuse of a mother I am.. I'm so confused and don't know what to do..