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My first son was stillborn.. Now I'm scared to get pregnant again.

Irene • Thu, Aug 18

Hey everyone,

Last year on October 1st my first son was stillborn and I had a really tough time believing it was true. My boyfriend and I planned to get pregnant when we conceived him and we were so excited. I found out when I was 36 weeks that my baby boy wasn't going to make it. We definitely want to have more children later on when we're ready again but we're worried that what happened to our baby boy might happen again. The condition he had was very rare but it still worries me. About two weeks ago we were having unprotected sex and he didn't pull out. I have been feeling nauseous and moody lately so I feel that I might be pregnant. I'm so nervous to take a pregnancy test because idk if I want it to be negative or positive. If it's positive I would still feel happy and blessed to have another baby since I miss my baby boy so much. But im still scared.. The app says my cycle should start in about 4 days but idk if I can wait that long to take a pregnancy test. Do you think I should wait til my cycle starts and then take one or should I take one sooner? Also if anyone here has had a stillbirth and had a baby after, how were you able to cope with it? I'm not sure how I would be able to. Thanks so much in advance