Lately before bed I can't sleep. I have thoughts running through my mind. It's not rare with me at all considering I have anxiety and depression.

But lately my thoughts have been very dark. About suicide and other things I'd rather not mention. Although I would never even consider it and I never think about it, only before I go to sleep. It causes me to not want to fall asleep because if I do, I usually have nightmares about what I'm thinking about before I fall asleep.

Sometimes I think about checking myself into a hospital or something because I know if I mention something to my mom or doctor they would want me to go anyways. But I know I'm not crazy.

It's very stressful to think about and I just want to know if anyone else goes through the same thing or if I really need help.