Have had enough

Of this pregnancy i thought i could do this but i cant to move is such torcher and my whole body is aching all the time i now have a huge pain in my left side that wont go away all i did was stand at my kictchen sink and sort my flowers out baby moveing hurts pressue all the time 4 weeks and im never doing this to my body again pregnancy is not for me crying all the time sorry girls just having a cry on here feel so alone my mums dead my dad i dont talk to about things like this as we aint that close adopted so i dont feel comfortable talking to him about my problems and i dont have any friends either so i feel so alone and on my own my partner is useless he never helps me or conforts me either i have to ask for a hug and then it for a second feel like im the one who has to to this and everything else keeping my newish home that i rent clean and tidy with no support from him what so ever just want my son out now so i can do things with out having emotional break down every 2 mins its hirrible for me it really is 8 years i wished for this baby and now i feel like im being punished feel guilty for saying how i feel all the time on here but i have to get it of my chest 😢😭😟