Obsessed??

So i had a miscarriage a few months ago :( we weren't even trying just said if it happens it happens and now since I had It I want a baby bad it's like always in my mind but of course now that we want one it's gonna take awhile but I always think what if it was my only chance idk just get depressed everytime AF comes ugh frustrating but trying to be positive :/ just needed to vent!!!!!