2 years of struggling finally ended in a positive test. Sadly, our happiness was very short lived. We had a miscarriage at 11 weeks and two days but the baby stopped growing at 8 weeks and 5 days. I had a test preformed shortly before I found out that I miscarried and it was able to tell the gender. It's been 8 months since my miscarriage and many times I want to know what the gender was. Lately, I've been struggling. Sometimes it's hard to fight the tears. I feel like I'm drowning and can literally feel my heart breaking. My due date was 8.14.16 it was a good day. My husband and I went on a trip. I highly recommend that to anyone who has a miscarriage. Now, I'm seeing life angry as hell because it doesn't look the way it should. My baby should be here and I'd give anything for it. I feel a need to connect with my child somehow. I'm wondering if I should find out the gender of my child. Would it make things better or would it only hurt more? With this much pain I'm not sure how it could hurt any worse. I just want my baby back. I'd love to hear from anyone who's experienced this. I could really use a friend.