Afraid to use tampons

This is literally so embarrassing.

No I am not a teenager I am a grown woman and I feel so squeamish about using tampons.

I was even afraid to have sex for the longest time because I think I have some sort of issues.

I finally bought a box for this coming cycle to use and I am going to make myself wear them.

Nobody knows that I am this scared to use them. My husband knows I wear pads but I don't think he knows the reason.

And I really don't get it.

I get pap smears, I have frequent sex, I've even had a transvaginal ultrasound. But those little cotton sticks freak the hell out of me. 😔