Pap smear gone horribly wrong

It was my first pap smear experience. Researched what it was ahead of time, found out about the speculum (and im a virgin!) so I dreaded the appointment for days. Went there, sat on the chair naked and tensed up like no other! Legs tense, vagina tense, I couldn't relax no mattee how many times we started over. The speculum never got to be fully inserted and I sat up, in deep despair and feeling pf shame. The lady talked to me and all I could think of was how my body got cold sweat, I was about to faint and a sudden nausea. I threw up. It was so embarrassing i couldn't stop saying sorry. Had to gather my strength for a while until I could put on my clothes and leave. Now I have made the decision not to do the pap smear until after i lose my virginity, because I just can't sit in a position like that and let something so huge in there. All ive ever inserted there is a tampon! I'm 23 and in my country that is when you first get the invitation to do the pap smear. Our national health care website says that if you are a virgin, you do not need to do a pap smear because HPV is only transferred with penetrating sex. What do you think about all of this?