*please ignore typos*

I see this as a personal problem and I don't have ANYBODY I can talk to about it.. I don't want to be judge and I don't think I need and advice I just want to talk.. freely like how you do with a good friend.

Anyway, this co woker is into me.. why I know it? She touches me, makes flirty comments and stars at me like you know how ._. At first I was like 'don't make it a big deal, maybe I am overreacting' but at the same time I didn't know how to act around her.. I was going to be fine if we just became friends, she is nice BUT NO.. THAT IS NOT HAPPENIN'

The problem is I don't like people, I don't date.. if I show any interest I know from my logic perpective it is just physical.. what I would like to happen? I would like to f*ck her.. and I know that sounds so bad.. I see her as a person who probably would like to be in serious relationship and I don't want to hurt her saying or doing something stupid.

1- I enjoy her showing interest in me (selfish b*tch of me);

2- I don't want to tell her why I don't go all the way when she is been sweet (don't want her to know how mean I am been for letting her waste her cuteness with me);

3- If I am mean (or not even mean.. just distant, like any other co worker would) with her she then tells me 'why are you been like that?'

These are me thoughts but how do I act when I am with her? Like a FRIKIN PUPPY! I have a calm personality and when she touches my hand an I seem shy and just move my arm.

4- There is never a proper moment to talk about it.. always people around and if I think if I ask her out of the work enviroment she is going to see as a date.

5- And.. what if she is the mean one? And wants me to lose focus.. and do bad at work? That maybe sounds like coming out of nowhere but the thing is I think that is a possibility.

6- What if she is been flirty with a lot of people at the same time and I am just giving to much tought to it and overconsidering her feelings?

7- I think nobody have notice it at work but if somebody does it is going to create gossip which I hate.

I think.. I don't think I KNOW all this is affecting my job because she is training me to do stuff and I could be better if I didn't have all this in my head.

8- I don't understand why she likes me.. I am in a 'learning process' in which she is 'my teacher' and I am been the dumbest student there is.. always forgetting things and been insecure about things >.< how is that attractive?

I figure out any more mix thoughts about this I will write them down..