Am I crazy? 9 or 10po. First month trying.

This is our first month trying to conceive. I didn't use any of ovulation tools this month, kind of a "if it doesn't happen this month, we'll get serious next month" thing. I'm not sure when I exactly ovulated, yesterday the bottom test was the same kind I took and it was negative. Took one this morning with a faint line, then bought another kind on my way to work. Digital said not pregnant but this one has a faint line also.