Feeling Shattered

Carla
Me and my fiance are on our 3rd cycle. And he talks about having a baby every day and all day! He often asks why im not pregnant yet and we both keep saying God will make it happen when he thinks we're ready. But the way he talks about it daily makes me excited and makes me even more persistent to know and to keep track of everything. So today i wanted to take a test n i ask to to buy one n he blows up and says that im the reason we arent pregnant yet. That i jinx us cause i keep taking test and that Im "thirsty" he says im thirsty to be pregnant. And it really hurt my feelings. Idk if im just being over emotional or if he is an ass hole. Im totally feeling like forget it i dont even want to try anymore since he feel like that!