Trigger warning.

I am currently in limbo. I was almost 9 weeks yesterday when I went in for my first appointmemt, and ultrasound, only to find out my baby stopped growing a week prior and had no heartbeat. I go in for my second round of bloodtests tomorrow, but my body hasn't accepted the loss yet. I have had no bleeding at all and I don't know how long I will be carrying around this sweet, lifeless baby inside me. I haven't seen my doctor again yet ,but my first thought is to reject any medical assistance, and let it happen naturally. But I don't know what to expect. I have 3 healthy children and have never experienced this loss before. I cried really hard with my husband by my side while getting my scan, but now I'm kinda numb, burying myself in online information and blogs, trying to understand the process. Thank you for any suggestions from experience.