I'm not depressed. I feel pretty good, I am eating well, I want to get up and do chores and shower ect I want to go out also. However I do feel very disconnected from my baby, I feel incabapble of being able to look after her, I feel as tho I'm carrying her wrong, changing her diaper wrong, the baby doesn't feel like mine ..  It's feels like a dream or that j have to give her back (I felt this way through out my entire pregnancy, I never believed I would actually give Beth and have a baby I feel so extremely lucky and blessed but j just can't believe it) my birth makes me want to cry, it's quite a traumatic experience for me ended in emergency c section even tho my baby came out extremely healthy and I'm grateful for that just thinking about my birth makes me want to cry.  A couple days after she was born I lost. A close family members of mine and although j feel as tho I have dealt with it much better than I had expected in sure that plays a part of my emotions. The biggest thing that makes me want to cry is my anxiety. It's getting way out of control and I don't know what to do. I'm extremely scared of SIDS or she's going to get sick or something. No matter what anyone tells me, how rare SIDS is and to do everything to prevent it I'm just the biggest paranoid pansy and I cannot enjoy