Recently I've came to the conclusion that my relationship is abusive. I'm not sure what it is, I think emotional? But my friends have told me over and over that it's abusive and it's not healthy for me. Anyways, I've been with him for over a year and I would love to spend every second with him and I love him but it just hurts me the way he treats me. He easily gets mad at me if I don't do something his way. He has rules where I can't do certain things and I'm not allowed to have a girls night with my friends and if I do he gets mad an ignores me. Just recently he's been ignoring me and I had intense anxiety that made me shake and cry (this never happens). It honestly hurts so much when he does this so I guess it's time to end it, unless he's already ending it first.. Idk what the point of this post is, I'm just venting and I'm feeling so upset about everything because I'd do anything for him and he doesn't really care about me..