Is their any depression medication at Rite aid or in any drug stores?!

So i dealt with at least 5 miscarriages in the past 4 years.... i know its alot.... I have depression and sucidal thoughts.... I do not want to go to the doctors because i know they will percribed me useless medication... What other things i can take or do to prevent such a horror time in my life.....🙏😔💔