I haven't slept at all, I have a doctor's appointment at 8 and I just am terrified of going.

I've had two pretty traumatic pregnancies before this and one MC so I'm just dreading going.

I'm terrified of that stupid blood pressure cuff so my pressure is almost always up.

This office has NONE OF my medical history and I'm going to have to explain to them that I have a panic disorder and have had two c-sections and I'm freaking out.

I'm very overweight and I always get crap about it no matter what, I've actually lost a TON OF weight between my 6 month old and this pregnancy but I know they won't care because I'm still morbidly obese. :(

I just don't want to go. :(

I want to curl up in a ball and just cry.