Need advice!!

So I had only kinda been with one guy before my current bf 
I told him when we met I was a virgin
But it wasn't totally true and by that I mean my first time the guys &@$@ was so huge it hurt me so I made him stop and not go further and he ended it
Now my current be has found out and is so mad with me My current was and still is my first proper relationship prop
Let every thing and now he hates me 
How do I fix it 💔