Wednesday I had blood drawn to make sure if was decreasing and it went up to 315. Had an ultrasound at the office but it's so low so they didnt see anything. They said they can't tell me if its retained tissue, ectopic, or even molar... Just that it's not healthy. So here I am at the ER getting worked up to get the methotrexate injections to terminate just in case. Sitting here it's just Deja  vu to February when I lost my first baby. How can I explain the pain when I don't have the words myself. I thought this would at least be another natural miscarriage but God has other plans. And from what I've read is you have to wait 6 months before trying again after receiving Metho. Ugh. This year has been so trying. It's hard. And I just needed to share.