Lost.

I had a miscarriage recently, idk what cause it at the time my husband had cheated on me lied about it hid a phone from me for 6 months. After all that I found out I lost the baby. There wasn't a day I didn't cry after I found out what he did. After I lost the baby I became more depressed to this day I cry he lies to me still and i don't know what to do. I'm slowly giving up on life and I have no one to talk to. I love him but I have a 5 year old and I can't have him see me cry everyday. I'm mentally and emotionally out. I feel worthless I hate looking in the mirror. Only reason I keep going is my son.