My first three months

Christina
My beautiful baby James was on born May 31/16. He's always been alert since day one, big blue eyes, never wanting to sleep just taking in this world around him. I started to notice something different about my baby around 2 weeks. He would scream hours on end, didn't want to eat, gassy, diarrhoea, he just ma wasn't my happy little baby anymore. Weeks went by we got told constantly by friends, family, doctors it was colic, he'll grow out of it, it's nothing to worry about but his father and I knew it wasn't. More time went on nothing changed, still feeling the same he was since birth. Trips to the doctor didn't help. They wouldn't do anything because it's common to be very colic at this age and it would pass by 3 months. I decided to do my own research. Of course the Internet wasn't going to diagnose my son but it sure as hell would give me answers to my question. After everything I could find I knew he was allergic to cows milk and I was going to stick by that no matter what. Went back to the doctors, told him about it and he said that it wasn't it because it's not common in babies at this age. He put him on this stomach medicine for reflux and said that this should do the trick. I wasn't convinced but I had to go with what he said, after all he is the doctor. He wasn't started on that, and he didn't help. Only made him worse. After a week I went back to the doctors, but saw a different. I told him all of what he felt and what I thought it was and he actually agreed.  At that moment, I cried inside. Someone actually listened to what I had to say and belived me. My son finally got helped. He prescribed him a special formula and by god it's working. My sweet baby boy, doesn't cry in pain, he's not gassy. He smiles and coos and is himself again. The first night I could tell the difference. Slept 6 hours without screaming in pain, woke up happy but hungry lol. 
I am though no longer to BF and it broke my heart. I wanted to BF for a least 6 months to a year. To have that bond but me BF was causing him harm. I am able to continue BF if was to completely cut out diary from my diet but for my own medical reasons I can't. Fed is best and formula is the best for him. 
I'm sorry it's a long post I just wanted to share my story. It's been an overwhelming first three months, crying, exhausted many emotions but I'm looking forward to these next months and years with my baby feeling better. It's called mothers instinct for a reason. You know your child, do what's right for your baby. After all you are the voice for your baby.  
My baby James 💙