Today, I was supposed to be exited about it being my due date, I would of had you in my arms or I would of been so impatient for you to be here already. I'm still impatient for you to be here. I pray that you are in the arms of God everyday, I pray that you watch down and comfort me when I miss you the most, I pray that even though I had you for such short time I will always remember this day. You were my best surprise and my saddest goodbye. You were everything I wanted without even knowing I wanted you. You were the light to my future and then you flew away so quick. 

I miss you so much, I wake up everyday and I still can't believe that it happened. I can't believe that I lost you. Today I mourn for you. Today I cry and think of what could of been. However, tomorrow is a new day, tomorrow I will thank God for showing me how special life is, I will praise at the fact that the depression didn't break me. I will patiently wait to conceive your brother or sister, and when I do, as you watch down from above I will love them with all my heart and a bit more so all the love can reach the heaven and touch your beautiful soul. 

You will never be unloved or forgotten, not a day passes that you don't cross my mind. 

Mom loves you to the heavens and back angel. 💔👼🏼