When I found out I was pregnant with my second I was over the moon! But as time went on my husband and I hit a really rough spot in our lives and the thought of a second child started to be the last thing we wanted. I hate to say it but we talked about alternatives such as abortion and adoption. But it was to late for an abortion and I hate to say it but I hoped for a MC. But as time went on and my belly starting growing and I started feeling flutters I realized this is a gift from God that I shouldn't take for granted. They're so many women who suffer from MC's and fertility issues that wish they were in my place regardless of their situation. As the day approaches of me finding out the sex of my baby I'm getting excited all over again! I pray everyday for forgiveness about my thoughts and feelings towards my unborn child and pray for a healthy baby and pregnancy. And hope in turn my husband would feel the same. I'm not looking for advice or judgment, just want to vent to someone other than my husband. But I feel like the worst mother in the world.