Disgusted by pp breasts ๐Ÿ˜ณ๐Ÿ˜–

I'm 8 months pp and before babies, i had great perky tiny boobs. After my first baby, i had medium sized somewhat droopy boobs. Now?! I have barely b cupped sized fried eggs on nails with nipples that are almost on the bottom! I HATE them! I wish I had none at all! I can't stand them and I'm not even done breastfeeding. I wish i could have them cut off. I don't know what to do. I can't afford a boob job but the idea of being stuck with these repulsive empty used up sacks of disappointment have me literally crying every other day. I hate that the advice for this kind of stuff is to basically get a push up bra so half my tit can be cotton or just embrace the shitty cycle of life i never asked to be a part of and that other women seem to be fairing so much better at. I'm so depressed. I've even thought about switching to hormonal birth control in hopes that I'd gain weight. My husband wants the 3rd baby wed planned on having buy i literally cant imagine hating my body any more. Which feels selfish but jesus im stuck in this shitty prison of a body forever!!! Any advice for a sad saggy titted girl with no hope for surgery? ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ญ