It's been one month since we had to say goodbye to our beautiful baby girl Abigail Faith at 20w5d. I would be 25 weeks 😞... I don't know if this makes sense but I've accepted that my daughter is no longer with us on earth but I really have not accepted it..?! I still look down at my belly or reach to rub but I'm just reminded every single time that Abby is no longer growing beautifully in my womb. I've cried but feel like I haven't let it all out because I'm trying to be strong.. Abby is my second loss. First daughter Melanie at 19w5d in 2009 and Abigail 20w5d 8/1/16. I just want my baby girl back and want to feel as happy as I did when I had her. I know I will see my girls in heaven when my time comes but I just don't understand.. why me?! I don't wish this on no woman but goodness this is sooo hard. The pain I feel in my heart is unexplainable 💔. I just needed to vent since I haven't commented or said anything to my husband/family on today marking 1 month since Abigail passing. I don't want to remind them. I have my appt with high risk ob 9/21 to schedule TAC since I have incompetent cervix. I'm  happy about that but still feel so empty without my girls. Thanks again for reading this..