lost after miscarriage

Sorry for this post, but I need to share. I had a miscarriage two weeks ago and was around 7 weeks pregnant. It started with cramping and brown bleeding for a few days, then nothing for 24 hours. Next, bam - bleeding for around five minutes and I passed my baby as a blood clot. I'm trying to be positive about it being so quick but I feel guilty that I flushed my baby away and can't unsee that image. I've cried every day since- some days more than others. My partner has been amazing and really supportive which helps. I just feel really sad and long for my lost baby. We're trying again and hope to be pregnant again soon. I've felt nauseous everyday since which seems really cruel. Just want the hurt to go away.