Post Abortion Nightmares

Courtney
When I was 17 I had an abortion and to this day it is still the most traumatising thing I've been through I regret it so much and it's change me so much I am not the same person I was a year ago, and I just want a baby so much not because of the regret and grief but because I know it's what I want and something I would be great at is being a mum and that I know deep down I am ready but for the last year every time I have a dream about me and my baby boy (I always thought that I would have carried a boy) I can't see the face it's always a new born baby and he's always wrapped up and a little blanked and can never see the face but every time I have dreams that I have a baby it always dies or something horrible happens to the baby and I hate it I wake up sweating and crying and having mental breakdowns it's been well over a year and I keep having these vivid dreams and nightmares!! Does anyone else have these after an abortion?? I need help I feel like I'm going crazy :(