My husband and i scheduled our second ultrasound back on thursday in the morning before we left for our trip to seattle. We found out that the baby still didnt have a heart beat at 7 weeks 4 day and we were still measuring at 6 weeks. It hurt so bad that day. I have been drunk and smoking weed just to numb the pain while on vacation. I m here for 2 weeks so i will most likely miscarry up here. I just dont know what i am suppose to feel. I have cried and i havent allowed myself to cry again. I just dont even want to fall down the rabbit hole. We are in seattle visiting his brother and their new born. It is making this so much harder. I know there was nothing i could have done but i feel like a failure. Especially to my husband. I just see how much he loves his brothers baby and i feel worse because i couldn't provide him that. Does anyone know how i should handle all of this? It was our first baby after trying for a year. When will i start to miscarry? I still feel very pregnant with the morning sickness but the weed keeps that at bay.