LONG STORY - If you're thinking about unprotected sex...

So all this summer, I've been thinking about how I'm 19 years old and still a virgin. I put myself down for it and longed to finally experience sex with a guy for the first time. (I had only been with girls in the past). Mid-July, I met this guy on tinder and we set up a date to hang out. We had originally planned to hookup on that day, but in the end just spent the time talking and getting to know eachother.  

Turned out, we both go to the same college and I finally decided I was ready to have sex. The day I moved in, I went down to see him but I chickened out in having sex...luckily he was really understanding and told me to take my time. Throughout that week, I came back almost every day and we'd fool around (mostly because my period showed up that next day) but after a few days he was pretty persistent on having sex. 

***side note - I'm on the pill***

So the last day of my placebo week, I finally give in and have sex with him. Now I made 2 mistakes...one, I lost my virginity to a guy that was basically using me as a booty call...and 2, we didn't use protection. He told me he'd pull out and I believed him. He also didn't wait until I was ready and he was kinda rough so I bled ALOT the following days. A week later, he messaged me again asking if I wanted to do homework with him and I said sure. 

So I get down there and we work on homework but when we finish, I end up doing it again knowing my mistakes from last time. Sadly, I made them both again. No condom, and this time he came in me. That whole ready of the month I was stressing about being pregnant. I started feeling sick every morning after about the 3rd week and last week I started spotting pink and brown which isn't normal for me so I went and bought pregnancy tests (each one came back negative) but between reading all the information and just stressing in general, I still believed I was pregnant. 

Lucky for me, my period actually came today, but I can't stress enough how bad of a feeling this month was. If you're thinking about having unprotected sex, PLEASE make sure you're ready just incase. No method is 100% effective and I will definitely be more careful in the future. I've learned my lesson.