I am bipolar and also in the small percent that can not take medication to stable my ups and downs due to the fact the they send me in to 6+month manic episode. Currently I am in a depressive episode. I have not been taking care of my self as I should and feel like I am sinking further down the whole of darkness. My partner does not understand what so ever and is not really helping. I feel so alone. I do not talk to my many people as I am a stay at home mom at the moment. I also feel as if I am.a burden on other if I express my feelings of despair. I am.worries that this will not go away and just get worse even after birth. With my second son I had postpartum coupled eutg a the hyper manic episode that resulted in a lot.of life-changing events. Not looking for advice just needed to rant I guess