So I'm in the color guard at my school and I have a crush on this flute player (he also wrestles and is in JROTC) in my grade. He's not my only crush though. I have a crush on him, two guys from my summer camp (still in contact with one of them), one of my friend's brother, a football player and a guy on JROTC. I don't normally do anything. I've never even had my first kiss. Everyone on my team and a couple band members know of my crush and some of them are his friends. I barely talk to him but we interact a lot more which makes my heart flutter. Now he notices me a lot more and sometimes even takes the time to talk to me randomly or when he sees me alone (especially is he sees that I'm upset or something). He is dating one of my best friend's cousin and they all tell me he doesn't like me. Still, I feel like some small part of him does. Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic or something. I'm to awkward and have never been in a real relationship with a guy. I end up being mean to a majority of the male species just because they are near me because it's how I cope with being awkward. I also never pursue any relationships because I'm nervous and awkward and don't know what to do. Do others do this or am I just really weird? Ps I'm a sophomore and almost 16