Im so ready but Im not ready

Sorry little bit of a rant.

I am 37+4 weeks and I have been feeling some really good contractions these last two days. Yesterday was my niece 2nd birthday so we went to a indoor play area for her party and walking and running around chasing kids from 5-8 was so painful. Then my kids didn't want to leave so we ended up staying until about 10. I thought I was going to die I was hurting so bad. Got home took a warm shower and went to sleep. Woke up this morning still hurting and feeling a lot more of the lighting crotch and my lower back is killing me. Im so ready to be done with this pregnancy I want my baby now but then at the same time I don't want her to be born just yet she still needs time to cook ugh. Im just over it.