Depressed

I'm 24+2 and feel so depressed. My son's father is verbally abusing me and I know I need to leave but I'm scared. I'm scared to do this alone. I don't want to mess up. I just want to feel loved and I don't. I haven't for a long time and I'm scared I never will 😭

He tells me he loves me then the next day I'm just sex and that he doesn't love me. But then when I give him his space he complains about it. I lost my job because of my pregnancy and until it is all settled I have limited income so he's the bread winner. He yells at me everyday because even when I cook and clean it's not done good enough for him. I'm tired through the day but I don't nap because I never know exactly when he'll come home and if he sees me sleeping he'll tell that I'm lazy and do nothing. I just want to be happy. But I don't want to move back out of state where I'm from and feel like I've just taken my son away from his father 😭😭😭